You sit in the car waiting for the rest of the family to get in. It always takes so long, you think to yourself with a frown. You are in a REALLY bad mood. Not only did you get kicked out of ICU but you aren't allowed to visit Zac for the rest of the time that he is in there. That could be forever. "Cheer up!" Isaac says turning around in the seat in front of you. "He'll be out of there in no time and you will be able to see him." "Ya, when? In about a million years?" You snap at him. "Hey, I didn't do it, don't take it out on me." He says defensivly. "Ya, don't worry Milia, he is going to be fine, you'll see." Kristen says trying to cheer you up as well. "Shut-up! You still have your boyfriend. You don't have the guilt of knowing that he could die at any moment cause you dropped a stupid necklace and he went to get it for you!" You snap at her. "Hey! Now wait a minute, you can't blame yourself for this. It was the driver, we already established that. The driver was looking at you, he admitted that." She says back at you. "Oh that makes me feel a million times better knowing that my boyfriend was almost killed cause some lonely truck driver was checkin' me out on the side of the road." You say, raising your voice a bit. "Ok, ok, bad move. But it isn't your fault, and don't start yelling at me." She says sternly. "Sorry." You reply then turn your head to look out the window. *****~~~~~*****~~~~~*****~~~~~*****~~~~~*****~~~~~*****~~~~~***** A month, A MONTH!! You say to yourself, the doctors think he will be in there for at least a month, what am I supposed to do until then? I can't stay away that long. I need to see him. Tears start streaming down your face as you think of this. What if he dies and I don't get to say goodbye, or tell him I love him again? You ask yourself a million questions the whole way home. (ok, now I wrote the next section listening to track 8 on the Titanic soundtrack, the first two minutes, so it influenced my writing, listen to it right now while you are redaing you'll see what I mean! but you have to read slow, and actully read evertying don't just skim!) Once you get home you slowly walk up to your room and sit on the bed and place your face in your hands. You look back up and towards the balcony, where just a few nights ago Zac was asking you what was going on in your relationship. You walk out to the balcony and put your hands where he was sitting. Perfectly fine, not knowing what that night would bring. I'm not late, you guys are later then me, you hear his small voice in your head. I heard that bugs were good for the skin, you hear again, far off. You look up and see him sitting on the ledge of the balcony, perfectly fine and smiling at you. "Guys, come down here please." Walker interupts your thoughts. Everyone goes into the family room and sits down, you see Diana crying on the chair. Oh god, you think to yourself. "We just got a call from the hospital. It appears that Zac has gotten worse." Walker struggles to say holding back his tears. "It seems that his bleeding has started again and he is on a resperator (tube to keep him breathing). He is no longer breathing on his own and they are having trouble stop- ping the bleeding." Walker struggles to hold in the tears but is unsuccesful. "Well......can we see him?" You ask surprisingly not crying yet. "Your mom...Diana and I are going to the hospital right now and we will probably spend the night, but you guys can't come, they won't let you in." Walker says. "But...this may be the last....and.....I...." You can't help it, you break down and start crying. You just stand there in the middle of the room as everyone goes back to what they were doing and Diana and Walker leave. (ok now start the song over again) You look around, the Nintendo, drawings, rough drafts of songs, everything reminds you of Zac. You begin to walk back to your room and trip and fall over something. You look back at the floor and see his Yellow Docs. You pick them up and hold them in your hands and start crying even more. Your tears fall on the docs. You pick yourself up and take them up to your room. You walk out onto the balcony and look at the stars. "Why are you doing this to me?" You shout out to no one. "What did I do to ever deserve this?" You scream then fall down on the floor crying.
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